Change changing places

I wonder how many songs written are about change.  Not even close to how many have been written about love I'm sure but I can rhyme off a few from the top of my head so I suspect there is a fair amount.  Like death and taxes, change is one of those given constants...always to be counted on happening in one way or another.  To some an unbearable stress point and to others, like myself, no big deal.  Or is it?

I like to think of myself as someone that adapts easily to the ever changing landscape around me. Personally, professionally, existentially...whatever.  Right?  Yes, mostly.  The tumult that my life has been over the past few years, what with divorce, cancer and my kids growing up without my permission I have had some changes.  I handled most of them well.  And by that I mean, I'm not in a position where I look back with regret. Have things been hard?  Yep, you bet.  I have learned and by extension grown because of these hard things.  That's probably my nature, and I'm glad it is, but I wonder if I am over simplifying things.  Am I glossing over events as an unknown defence mechanism on my part.  I hope not but I do now ask that question of myself...what of the road not taken?

Two things this week have prompted this little post.  My sister has developed an issue with her eye. Thankfully not like my eye issue but certainly difficult to deal with for all involved.  My poor mother is probably beside herself.  And, sadly, my girlfriend and I have gone our own ways.  We simply couldn't get back the magic we once enjoyed.  These are changes.  Like a pinball bouncing around inside a machine, it sometimes feels like there is no plan, no direction known...just reaction to bumpers and flippers.  Look at me driving down this highway enjoying the scenery....crap, a pony just crossed the divide.  Now what?????

I don't want to get into the whole God and religion debate here.  I believe to each is own.  Just don't presume to convert me or pass judgement on me.  You'll get an earful and then some.  Just random thoughts hopefully begging more discussion...I feel I will come back to this post.

In the mean time....hug your mom

Ciao
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