...Beans don't burn on the grill.
Yeah, I really have no idea what those song lyrics mean in relationship to moving on up to that deluxe apartment in the sky but this was what was running through my head yesterday while helping my daughter and her boyfriend move out together. That and for some reason the theme to Rawhide as sung by the Blues Brothers. I told you my brain works funny.....just......ok.
Yes, a significant milestone has been reached. My oldest has moved out on her own and you know what? I'm actually fine with it. In fact, I think it's a good move for her and them. A chance to spread their wings a bit and get a taste of that thing we all call life. So, of course, some reflection is in order.
Change is in the air. Daughter number one is out on her own and that changes our relationship...we won't be seeing each other as much as we have up until two days ago and that kind of sucks. It's entirely possible that she may go to Ontario for medical school and that sucks even more....nothing against you Ontario but I like my kids near me. Even my youngest daughter is talking about moving to Toronto when she finishes school to be a dental hygienist. You never know, the boy might make his way out of town and then what pour moi?
Is it possible that I might find myself packing up and heading west, back to the big city at some point in the future? I don't know to be honest. Gut reaction is to shrug my shoulders in confusion. I'd like to be near my kids and perhaps eventual grandkids....uh oh. A grandfather? Me? What the fuck? But at the same time, I've been busy cultivating a life here and I kind of enjoy it to be honest. And what of my dream to live in Europe for part of the year? Moving on up indeed.
As I watched my daughter make those bold steps out into the world at large I could see both fear and excitement in her eyes. The thought of her not coming "home" at the end of the day is strange and yet not really. Bit by bit I think we all work our way towards these days with not only our kids but ourselves....the one constant, the thing we can all agree on, other than death and taxes is that there will be change.Personally, I'm completely at ease with change. It doesn't phase me in the least. For whatever reason, I can change a job, adjust to new situations and move across country without too much loss of sleep. That change, whatever it might be, is kind of exciting....what is coming around that bend for me this time?
So while I contemplate the next big thing, which is most likely my youngest graduating high school in a year, which will precipitate other changes, I will wish my oldest all the best. Don't piss off your neighbours, make sure you talk to your boyfriend and enjoy this new chapter in your life....if you're nice maybe I'll bring over some curry.
P.S. Love your new stove, circa 1978
Bon chance
Papa
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