"Quando dio vuole castigarci, ci manda quello che desideriamo"
"When the Gods wish to punish us, they answer our prayers"
Yes, I'm riffing on a quote again, Sorkins no less, but to be fair, he was riffing on Oscar Wilde...so there. So what shall we discuss today? Careful what you wish for? Better the devil you know than the one you don't? The grass is always greener on the other side? Tuberculosis? The last one was a Seinfeld thing to see if you were paying attention.
It's been an interesting and eventful time for me. My daughter has been accepted into medical school, thus relieving her of a certain amount of uncertainty and stress. I mentioned to my super that I'd like to explore the idea of getting out of my lease and he pretty much has me on the clock now since he has all but rented the apartment out already....I should just learn to keep my mouth shut. Throw in a medical appointment or two and you have a busy few days around Chez Orovec. The big thing is obviously the medical school news. So proud of her and all the work she has done to get there, but in many ways this just the beginning. The beginning of a new set of challenges. I'm certain she will excel but I'm also certain that the stresses of today will give way to other stresses. That's both the curse and beauty of life, it never ends. We just keep moving the goal posts.
I can just hear the conversation sometime next fall; why the hell did I want to get into medical school? Holy crap all the work, all the stress....GAH!!!! By getting exactly what she hoped for, she may very get more than she bargained for. Personally I'm not so fatalistic to think that the Gods are out to get me or anyone else but I know of a lot of people that do feel that way...so I'm left wondering if they question God when something bad happens. Does he answer all prayers? Yes they say, but sometimes the answer is no and sometimes the answer is what you wished for and you end up cursing the living hell out of it all. GAH!!!!
I wonder if sometimes we spend so much energy on wishing and working for some desired utopia that we miss the good things along the way. And when we do get that thing that our hearts so desired we are left less than impressed and thinking that maybe it was the next thing over we were really looking for. The big thing. Ignore all else and focus on the big thing.
Years ago, a real estate agent that we had used when we bought our first home in Lunenburg to be converted to a B & B, was having a chat with me over a coffee. We were essentially sharing a bit of gossip around another property in town that we were contemplating buying. A much larger but much more lucrative opportunity. It seems the people that had purchased it barely a year ago were looking to get out because of the marriage breaking apart. I was a tad shocked to think that someone could enter into such a huge endeavour if their marriage was rocky, then my friend said something a little prophetic...sometimes people think that by doing a large thing together the "little" problems will fade away. I probably would have missed the irony if at that time my marriage was on the rocks because I'm stupid that way but his bit of wisdom proved to be true years later.
Too often we miss the signs of discontent in our lives because of all the noise around us. The kids, work, mortgage payments, the car needs new tires and so on and so on. In the midst of all this we dream of some vision that will make it all seem right. Perhaps a trip to the Greek Isles to rekindle love. A grand gesture to right a wrong. But as I touched upon in my last post, the real issues seem to be shunted off in favour of the immediate. We haven't had a true meandering conversation about "us" in 5 years but sure let's go sit on a beach and ignore that for a little while longer.
While we pray to the Gods for whatever it is we think we want we may be missing the better part of our lives. The dogged pursuit of greener pastures or the plum job can mask what we maybe should be focusing on. Don't ask me what that is of course, I simply know what it might be for me. I'm good with that. My fortune cookie wisdom works for me, I'll share if you want but really you need your own cookie.
Photo courtesy of my talented friend Margo
Ciao
D
Years ago, a real estate agent that we had used when we bought our first home in Lunenburg to be converted to a B & B, was having a chat with me over a coffee. We were essentially sharing a bit of gossip around another property in town that we were contemplating buying. A much larger but much more lucrative opportunity. It seems the people that had purchased it barely a year ago were looking to get out because of the marriage breaking apart. I was a tad shocked to think that someone could enter into such a huge endeavour if their marriage was rocky, then my friend said something a little prophetic...sometimes people think that by doing a large thing together the "little" problems will fade away. I probably would have missed the irony if at that time my marriage was on the rocks because I'm stupid that way but his bit of wisdom proved to be true years later.
Too often we miss the signs of discontent in our lives because of all the noise around us. The kids, work, mortgage payments, the car needs new tires and so on and so on. In the midst of all this we dream of some vision that will make it all seem right. Perhaps a trip to the Greek Isles to rekindle love. A grand gesture to right a wrong. But as I touched upon in my last post, the real issues seem to be shunted off in favour of the immediate. We haven't had a true meandering conversation about "us" in 5 years but sure let's go sit on a beach and ignore that for a little while longer.
While we pray to the Gods for whatever it is we think we want we may be missing the better part of our lives. The dogged pursuit of greener pastures or the plum job can mask what we maybe should be focusing on. Don't ask me what that is of course, I simply know what it might be for me. I'm good with that. My fortune cookie wisdom works for me, I'll share if you want but really you need your own cookie.
Photo courtesy of my talented friend Margo
Ciao
D
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